Introduction

My husband & I are expecting our first child and I have recently been put on bed rest due to high blood pressure.  I decided I needed to do something to keep me preoccupied while I wait for this little boy to arrive & thought why not start a blog.  I have had many things happen that would be nice to write about.

In August of 2010, I was working part time at IKEA as a kitchen planner.  One day out of the blue I just noticed that something was not quite right with me.  I was tired all the time & taking naps any chance I could get.  This was odd for em because I normally don't sleep well.  After work one night I decided that I would stop by and pick up a pregnancy test, I had not been taking my birth control since March, so something said maybe I should try this.  As funny as this is, I also picked up a pack of ciggs and a six pack of beer because I thought no way that I was pregnant.  I went home took the test & just about lost it when I saw the two pink lines show up.  For some reason Jason was not home yet, I do believe he was visiting his family that night so he got home later.  When he got home I asked him if he would go to the bathroom & checkout what was on the counter, meanwhile I am shaking in my shoes because I have no idea what he is going to think.  He comes back out and asks, what am I looking for, so I had to go show him.  He was just thrilled!

Meanwhile I just found out that I was promoted and was going to be a full time employee so things seemed to be working out great!  Well anyone who knows me, is well aware that things just don't happen so smoothly in my life.  I feel like I am always thrown a curve ball.  My mom was diagnosed with Lung Cancer back in March (of 2010) which is the same time my father in law Tommy passed away from a sudden heart attack.  I was excited to give her such good news because she was really down and out about the cancer.  She was so happy and I could tell that I made her day!  Well in November she got pneumonia and was put on oxygen.  We thought this would just go away because my mom is a fighter and she had a new little one that was coming along that she needed to be there for.  Needless to say she passed away the week of Thanksgiving and although we were all there with her while she took her last breath I think it was one of the hardest things I had to go through, especially pregnant. My emotions where all over the place and everyone was just telling me to be calm because the baby is important and I needed to keep him safe.  Before she passed we did find out that the baby was going to be a BOY, so she did get to know that and she pegged it.  She thought all along that it was going to be a boy.  

I have had a really hard time with loosing my mom because this is my first child and she should be here for that and I want her help.  It comforts me to know that she has one of the best seats in the house though along with dad, gg, papa and Tommy.  Even though you think this would be enough, nope here I am sitting around because I am on bed rest now.  I was also diagnosed with gestational diabetes but have that under control with diet.  This is going to be a way to show my creativity and for my husband a way for me to hopefully not spend so much money.